December 2009
yesterdays
yesterday
days I knew happy sweet
yesterdays
olden days
golden days
days of mad romance
and love
I want you, I want so bad it is driving me wild.
You are the perfect guy for me other guys make me feel silly stupid and ugly. I cant imagine my life with you as my guy because I cant allow myself to believe such lovely things. Nice things dont happen to me. They dont let me in to a world filled with love and such. Those are items I dont deserve. I hope to have started my whole life by now but my life is slow motion. I want to go fast forward...
ju
just give me a reason to stay i cant believe this shit is my life feeling so unwanted under appreciated hating myself closing my eyes waking up a failure feeling as though I will never be right. My memories play on constant rotation I am so empty but who can i tell who will be there? My heart is not what it use to be. I use to be up to the challenge of love. I am no longer that person that...
